Listen to Who You Are

Since I was 6 I looked at the world and thought many times that it just didn't make sense. It simply didn't make sense. Fast forward to the teenage years and well we know how those are. Hormones you are not ready for, boys with even more hormones that we aren't ready for and boundaries to be explored or not. I got married and the funny thing on my wedding day I knew it wasn't going to last. It didn't.

I kept trying to find where I fit and what that meant. I survived several car accidents (none my fault and 1 was a head on collision), a guy I was living with put a gun to my head and pulled back the trigger. This was the first time I sensed an angel in my adult life and knew I wasn't crazy. This is when I realized the power of LOVE. Yes I am writing this alive and well!

A gentleman once told me that I was amazing on the inside and it was time to reflect that on the outside. Needless to say at the time I was in my punk rock phase. How much hairspray did I use?

It took a few more years to really get it. That I wasn't here by chance. I was meant to be here. Then the fun part came, a few more years of trying to get myself back into a box. Ooops, can't do that because once the box is open you can't go back.

I laugh at some of the things people have said to me along the way. I laugh even harder that I actually listened to some of them! What was I thinking?

I know pain and I know JOY. I have seen miracles and I have cried from the beauty of a sunrise. I know me and I know who I am.

So with that wonderful knowledge I do what I know I need to do from deep inside. Sometimes I even look at myself like I have lost it however I know, I know that there is perfect timing for every good thing. I know there is a season for each thing. I know these are amazing times we live in. I know the power of prayer.

So while I play with my new cell phone I know that the only thing that makes it wonderful or useful to me is that it delivers the messages and voices of those I love and cherish. That is because of the wisdom of knowing who I am.

To all the ladies who have been there for the journey before and will be there for the journey forward...

God Bless You and Those You Love, C